Chapter 6: My Immortal

(Song: Evanescence - Call Me When You’re Sober)

Jacob opened his eyes as the light filtered through the blinds onto his face. Turning his head, he looked at Bella sleeping besides him. He studied her sleeping face as he thought of what had happened between them the night before.

Jacob could feel Bella trembling beneath him as he let his hands wander beneath the cotton chemise she wore. His fingers skimmed over her skin as they made their way up towards her breasts. His lips left hers to suck along her jaw before he licked his way to the pulse in her neck, then trailed his tongue along her collarbone. He heard her moan as his hand cupped her breast then she gasped as his nails scraped over her hardening nipple.


She arched her back, pushing her breast into his hand as he lifted the chemise up, baring her body to the air. Taking his mouth from her collarbone, he began suckling the creamy mound that didn’t have his hand over it.


“Oh Jake,” came her breathless moan as her hands moved down his back to grasp the ends of his shirt where she lifted it up to expose his skin.


Bella ran her hands back up his back, enjoying the feel of his muscles moving as she pushed his shirt up until she could pull it over his head to toss it to the floor. She knew she shouldn’t be doing that with him, especially since he was still engaged to Vanessa, but his mouth and hands were convincing her otherwise. She could feel his growing hardness against her cloth-covered heat every time she lifted her hips to meet his.


He wanted her and she was in love with him. She knew she would never say no to him, not when he seduced her like this. All thoughts flew out of her head when his hand trailed down her stomach, beneath her cotton bikini and grazed the sensitive bundle of nerves hidden between her legs. She gasped at the delicious electric pulses that his finger was sending throughout her body and automatically spread her legs to give him better access.


Jacob balanced himself on one hand as his mouth moved to savor her other creamy breast while his finger continued to coax her body to new heights. Bella’s hips undulated against his hand, following the rhythm of the strokes from both his finger and tongue. Her hands traveled over his back, desperately trying to find purchase as he drove her wild.


Finally, she grabbed the back of his head with one hand while the nails of her other hand dug into the flesh of his shoulder blade. She bit her bottom lip to hold in her cry as one of his fingers plunged inside of her.


Jacob could feel her shuddering beneath him as he continued to draw out her climax with his hand. He enjoyed the feel of her engorged button against his thumb and the warm liquid that still leaked over his finger. He lifted his head to take in the look of pleasure on her face, smiling in satisfaction that he hadn’t forgotten what she liked.


Slowly, he removed his hand from between her legs and shifted his body so that he could capture her lips again, this time with more urgency and hunger. He lowered his hips to settle against hers as he tugged her chemise up, letting his mouth leave her sweet one for as long as it took to get it over her head. Then he was back, feasting on the honey of her mouth, letting his tongue mimic what he intended on doing to the moistness between her thighs.


Soon he pried himself from her addictive kisses and let his tongue and lips leave a wet trail from her lips all the way down to the top of her bikini. He curled his fingers beneath the elastic and sensuously slid them down. She lifted her hips so he could remove them with ease until he tossed them aside and lowered his head to her naked body. He nuzzled the inside of her thigh as he breathed in her mouth-watering scent of arousal.


Wasting no more time, Jacob delved between her folds like a man dying of thirst and allowed his tongue to lap at her plentiful juices. Bella’s hips lifted towards his greedy mouth, offering him all she had to offer. He could feel her hands in his hair, tugging him closer even as she began to grind herself against his face.


She whimpered as his tongue dipped inside of her, brushing against her walls before retreating to lap at the hard, sensitive spot near the top of her folds. When he sucked it into his mouth as he slid two fingers into her slick cavern, she let out a moan that turned into another cry as he curled his fingers up and found the spot inside of her that made her reach another peak.


He lifted his head, licking his lips even as he continued to prolong her last release and slid his body up over hers until he was poised over her again. He looked down into her languid gaze, enjoying the fact that he’d now given her two, even though he was certain that wasn’t the last.


“You are so sweet, Bells” he whispered. “Like nothing else.”


Before she could respond, he covered her mouth with his, allowing her to taste herself along with his own drugging kisses. They moaned in synchronicity, even as Jacob quickly removed his pajama bottoms and briefs.


Taking her hands in his, he lifted them slightly above her head as he lowered his body to hers and entered her with one swift thrust. Bella tossed her head back, biting her lip as she lifted her legs to wrap around his hips. Arching her body, she let her hips meet his with each thrust, their bodies setting the perfect matching rhythm together.


She lifted her lips to his again, kissing him with the same amount of need and urgency as their bodies were conveying. With each push, Jacob delved deeper and faster until her toes curled against the backs of his thighs and he felt the convulsion deep inside of her that matched the moan his mouth swallowed. Her walls rippled around him, coaxing him until he reached his own final end.


This time she caught his moan with her mouth, as he shuddered above her then collapsed against her body. He could feel her arms tighten around him as her lips grazed his shoulder, but she didn’t say a word. They remained that way until he felt like he was growing too heavy for her and slid to the side. He sighed in contentment as he rolled to his side and pulled her into his arms.


Brushing his lips against her hair he whispered, “Love you, Bells.”


“Love you too,” came her soft reply.


Not long after that, he’d fallen asleep listening to the sound of her breathing.

Now, lying there in the growing light of day, he studied her face in detail, thinking of what he had to do that day. He admired the way Bella seemed to look so relaxed and unburdened as she slept and hoped that someday he’d feel the way she did. Granted, he’d slept well in her bed after all those sleepless nights he’d had, but he knew they weren’t gone. There was still so much he had to do before he could feel normal again.

Most notably, he had to go talk to his father to see if there was some way to get Vanessa out of his life, but still be able to care for the baby. He really hoped he could because he was tired of getting involved with women who were with him for the wrong reasons. It was time he stopped chasing skirts and concentrated on the things he’d said he would so long ago. It was time he concentrated on finishing his schooling, so he could go to work and fulfill his dreams.

With a soft sigh, he slid out of bed and quietly gathered his clothes. Putting them on, he then went to Bella’s desk and scribbled a note on a post-it before putting it on her nightstand. Looking at her sleeping form one last time, he quietly slipped out of the balcony door to make his way back home.

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(Song: Within Temptation - Memories)

Bella came to consciousness slowly. Her body had begun to realize that some of the warmth had left the bed not long ago. Opening her eyes, she blinked the sleep out of them as she looked at the empty space beside her. Lifting her head, she looked around the room and noticed all of Jacob’s clothes were gone. She sighed as she rolled over, then froze when she noticed the note sitting on her nightstand.

Picking it up, she read it to herself.

“Bells, I’m going to talk to dad today to hopefully end things with Vanessa. I’ll call you when I have answers. Thanks for being there for me again. -Jake.”

Bella stared at the note in her hand, a crease starting to form between her eyes. A note. He’d left a note, just like he’d left the first time. And all it really said was thanks. It always said thanks. She shut her eyes as she crumpled the note in her fist, not believing what she’d just read.

How could he? Did he really just see her as nothing more than a comforting moment, a friend with benefits? She knew he had sex with his girlfriends, but she was certain it wasn’t as casual as he’d just made her feel. She could have sworn Jacob had never liked it when guys treated a woman like she was nothing more than a means to scratch an itch. He’d never given her that impression before.

Nineteen year old Bella was lounging by the pool in the backyard when a maid came out to let her know her boyfriend, Derek, had arrived to see her.


As the maid returned to the house to escort Derek outside, Bella grabbed her sarong as she frowned and wondered what he was there for. She’d only been his girlfriend for less than a week and already he seemed to be popping up when she least expected it. She was still wrapping the sarong around her bikini-clad body as Derek followed the maid outside.


Bella caught the look in his eyes as he caught a glimpse of what she had on beneath the sarong. She finished tying it closed as the maid returned to the house, then picked up her sunglasses and slid them on.


“What are you doing here Derek?” she asked.


He gave her what he thought was a winning smile. “What? I can’t come spend some time with my girlfriend?”


“We spent nearly all day yesterday together and I told you I was studying today. Aren’t you supposed to be doing the same?”


He shrugged. “I’m done and you call lounging by the pool studying?”


She sighed. “I was taking a break.”


“Oh really?”


She nodded as she pointed to the books and other school stuff that was spread out over a nearby table. “Yes, there’s my stuff.”


He watched as she walked over to the table and began shuffling through her books. He walked up behind her and wrapped his arms around her waist.


“Aw, come on gorgeous. Tell me you’re done for the day.”


She shrugged out of his embrace. “Sorry Derek, I still have some more studying to do, then I have a paper to work on tonight.”


He reached out and pulled her flush to his body. “Hm, but I’m sure none of it is due right this minute.”


Bella looked up into his eyes and frowned. “Knock it off Derek.”


He ignored her as he leaned over to kiss her. She turned her head to avoid it.


“Would you stop?” she muttered.


He sighed as he rested his forehead against her temple. “Can’t convince you to spend time with me can I?”


“Not today, Derek. Sorry.”


He pouted. “Okay fine, then can I get a kiss so I can go away and leave you alone?”


Bella turned to face him for a moment before she tilted her head back. He grinned as he removed her sunglasses and lowered his lips to hers. Bella felt him slide his arms tighter around her waist, but ignored it as he deepened the kiss. She let her arms circle his shoulders, feeling a bit guilty for not paying attention to him that day. She figured a kiss was what she owed him for that.


Still, the kiss soon turned heated as his hands began to wander over her body. She could feel him trying to sneak his hands beneath her sarong. They’d gone to second base a few times, but she wasn’t ready for the next level yet, they’d only been together for a week!


As his hands touched her flesh, she began moving away from him. “Just a kiss Derek!”


He groaned. “Oh come on Bella, just a quickie huh? The pool house is right there and your parents aren’t home.”


She shoved him away. “No Derek!”


He glared at her as she turned away to retrieve her things. The next thing she knew, she was being dragged towards the pool house kicking and screaming.


“Stop! Derek stop! I mean it!”


He pushed her against the wall next to the door, trying to kiss her again. “Come on Bella, you know you like when I get you off.”


“Not now!”


He growled. “Why not?”


She tried to push him away. “Because I said so!”


He reached out and opened the door. “Come on gorgeous, just five minutes.”


“Ugh, you are such a perv!”


He lifted her up and swung her over his shoulder making her cry out. “What the hell! Derek put me down!”


“Not ‘til we get to the couch.”


Bella grabbed hold of the doorframe and held on for dear life. Derek turned his head to see what she was hanging on to.




“Let go Bella!”


“Put me down!”


“Fine!” He threw her down on the floor and pounced.


Bella’s hands flew everywhere, trying to find some purchase to get him off of her. “Stop! Please stop it!”


He was pawing at her sarong, trying to get to her bikini bottom. “Just a quickie, I swear.”


She growled at him as panic seized her. “You don’t let me up Derek and I swear I’ll have my father geld you!”


He laughed. “Is that even a word?”


She shrieked as she began clawing at him. Her panic was turning to terror as he ripped her sarong off of her and began palming her breasts.


“You are so fucking hot Bella!” he groaned.


He was just reaching for his pants as another scream welled up in her throat, but before it could get out Derek was suddenly gone. Bella looked up in time to see Jacob slamming him into the wall as he grabbed hold of Derek’s shirt and put his face so close to Derek’s that their noses almost touched.


“She said no, asshole!” Jacob growled.


Derek’s hands went up in a gesture of defeat. “Okay, okay. I get it.”


Jacob dragged him away from the wall and made him face Bella who was now pulling her torn sarong around herself.


“Apologize to her.”


Derek lowered his head. “I’m so sorry, Bella.”


Bella could hear the sincerity in his voice, but she knew it was mostly because he didn’t want to get pummeled by Jacob Black. Still it was enough as Jacob shoved him towards the door.


“I’m sure you know the way out. You come near her again without her permission and I’ll make sure you live to regret it.”


Derek wasted no time scrambling out the door and off the property as Jacob turned to see if Bella was okay. She was still on the floor trying to pull the torn sarong closed. Jacob grabbed a towel from a shelf nearby and knelt down to wrap it around her. He could feel her shaking as he did so.

(Song: Evanescence - My Immortal)

“Are you cold Bells?”


She shook her head which made him frown since she wouldn’t look at him.


“Are you…okay?” he hesitantly asked.


She started to nod, then stopped. He watched as her lips trembled and a tear leaked out of her eye to slide down her cheek.


Quickly he wrapped her up in the towel and lifted her into his arms. Carrying her to the couch, he sat with her in his lap as she finally let go of her tears. He held her close, rubbing her back in soothing circles as he whispered that it was okay. That he wouldn’t let anything hurt her.


When her tears had subsided, he lifted a corner of the towel to wipe away the remaining wetness from her face. “You okay now, Bells?”


She nodded. “Yes,” came her croak.


He set her on the couch before retrieving a bottled water for her from the bar. As she drank, he brushed the hair from her face.


“He didn’t hurt you, did he?”


She shook her head. “No, you got here just in time.” She finally looked up into his eyes. “Thanks, Jake.”


He gave her a tender smile. “You’re welcome.”


“How did you…”


“I was working out in the gym.”


She smiled. “Lucky me.”


He nodded as the smile left his face. “Bella? What are you going to do about him?”


She sighed as she sat back against his chest. “Break up with him and tell him he’s not allowed on our property. I’m telling him that I’ll tell my dad if he tries anything ever again.”


Jacob nodded as he continued to run his fingers through her hair. “Good, he was never good for you anyway.”


She rolled her eyes as she dropped her head against his. “Jake, please don’t say I told you so.”


He slid his arms around her, holding her close. “I won’t Bells. I just don’t like guys who treat their girl like she’s just there for his convenience. Derek only wanted one thing from you…what an asshole!”


Bella sighed. “Yeah, guess he got tired of waiting.”


Jacob kissed the top of her head. “He never realized that you would have been worth waiting for.”

Bella closed her eyes as pain washed over her. Tears leaked out of her eyes as those words played out over and over in her head. Why couldn’t she be worth anything to him? Couldn’t Jacob ever see her as something more than a warm body and a best friend?

So he was going to try to end things with Vanessa. At least that was a good thing, but he hadn’t said anything about what they had shared. Maybe she should have told him how she really felt about him, but would he have stayed if she had? Would he have returned her feelings? Maybe he would have ran if she told him that she loved him. Or worse, maybe he would have used her feelings to get what he wanted, then left just like he had.

That last thought had more tears leaking down her cheeks as she stifled the sobs that threatened to accompany her tears. Shaking her head, she hastily wiped her tears away and got up.

“Stupid Bella,” she mumbled under her breath as she picked up her clothes, “it’s no use crying over spilt milk. You didn’t stop him even when you knew it was a bad idea in the first place!”

She sighed as she dropped her clothes in the hamper and walked into her bathroom to turn on the shower. Shaking her head at herself, she knew what was done, was done. She’d slept with her best friend again and now he was gone.

He’d gone to put his life back in order and now it was time she did the same. It was time she stopped living for him and looked at all of the possibilities around her. It was time for her to go on with her own life.